Sunday and Monday

Wow updating a behavior blog is not any easier than updating a personal blog!! I am shocked... not really. Sunday i had breakfast with my mother and when I got home is went to sleep. Not because i was depressed but because I am sick and i had dental work the day before and not much sleep the night before. I slept because i was tired. Work up around 2:40 ish to find that David who is also sick wasn't feeling well either and the house still needed to be cleaned before D n D. I was able to clean over a period of an hour in short bursts interrupted by video game play, (Damn you Lich KING!!) which I firmly place at David's and Blizzard's feet. I take responsibility for playing but i wouldn't know about it with out David. D n Ders showed up early but it was nice to chat with Nate and Patrick before Liz and A showed up. Once everyone was there they spent 25 minutes trying to decide what to order for dinner and that was annoying. I ran the story for the evening and while it seemed to take forever my friends and family seemed to enjoy it. David had to take care of the kids and seemed to be very mean to me including making the comment that a wife and kids was a level of hell. While a part of my brain knew he was joking a part of me acknowledged that this was not the first time in the last few months that David had made a comment like that. I didn't really have the time to worry about it then but every once in awhile it pops back into me head and hurts again. David seemed upset and annoyed that he had to take care of the kids and I felt helpless that I couldn't do both things and annoyed that he couldn't suck it up and handle it.
Sunday was a bad day because I couldn't help David and I was hurt by his words.

Mood Number: 3
Hard to stay positive and slept when i should have sucked it up and helped David with the kids.
Cycle day: 6
Meds: Welbutrin still need to refill my Celexa


Monday
Had to help mom get her car fixed ended up spend the entire morning with her running errands for Feast of the Kings. Was tired when that was done. When I am productive it is easier to power through the tiredness. But when i am sick and down it is challenging to do that. I got L to nap and instead of napping also i played video games. When mom came home with K I was able to get him started on homework and clean a little bit. K had a friend over and I tried to work out their problem. I didn't finish cleaning the dinning room for family dinner night. I couldn't seem to stick to it. I cleaned out the dog crate and swept all around it but couldn't seem to sweep the rest of the room. It was a bit frustrating that I couldn't complete a job that i knew i could do.

Mood number: 3
Upset by inability to finish a task
Cycle day 7
Meds: Forgot to take anything today. Still haven't refilled my celexa but i did call Dr. Schmid to get a meds request.